||[Apr. 22nd, 2009|09:39 pm]
Using FAM/LAM while Breastfeeding
I got my first PP period on 3.6, at 15 months PP. My pre-baby cycles were usually 31 days, ovulating on day 16 or 17 with a 14 or 15 day LP. On CD 16, I had some bleeding which was heavy enough for a panty liner for about 24 hours. I've never had ovulatory bleeding before, but figured maybe that's what it was, and was super excited about getting back to "normal". I am not temping because 1. my sleep is too unpredictable due to night time nursing, and 2. I have an IUD, so I'm not super worried about getting pregnant. Until now. I am now on CD 48. I had negative HPTs on days 34 and 43; I've decided to just test weekly, because I don't know what the hell is going on, and I'm paranoid. My cervix feels high and soft all the time. I have days of wet CM/bordering on EWCM and then days of dry/creamy CM. I have had to take a nap every day this week, but who knows what is causing exhaustion with a 16 month old who doesn't sleep well at night. What is going on? It's probably just a case of irregularity with the return of fertility, but it's starting to piss me off, because I really like being regular, and I'm getting annoyed. I did leave work today feeling pretty nauseous, and have had a couple of aversions, and cramping, but this is probably all in my head, right? I have the worst luck in the world, and have had 3 unintended pregnancies, so there is a little voice in my head taunting me that I am pregnant. I don't want to be pregnant, but it wouldn't be the end of the world... I'm just rambling now.
Please, just tell me some BTDTs. Tell me I'm nuts, and it just takes time to get back to normal.